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((danielle you know how i feel.hes everything))
x0_amanda
p.s..after all said and done;your an angel from above.
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I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
Friday...Went to school, Brian walked right by me and then I called his name and he gave me like a ER face like I didnt mean to walk right by you and not say hey. That day was kinda chill. I actually passed my Biology test, and yeah gotta 77 on my Math test but I am getting 5 extra points because of test corrections and mommy's signature. But then I came home, did some cleaning, and then Katherine and Lauren called me off the hook to see if I was going over there. But yeah, Karen came and got me after they went to Kohl's and we went back to Katherine's. We all got ready, and yeah Lauren said I looked so cute. I was excited. She made me think that I was really extra cute. HaHa. We dressed Katherine up though. She was the little prep in the crew. I like how Angela and Zach sit right behind us and like tell us to shut up when they were the ones who decided to shit behind us. I SAW ERIC DEWOLF! O M G A W! I miss that kid like whoa buddy...lemme break it down for you! haha. He is a redneck! <3 Love you Kid! <3 The football game was freezing we left in the third quarter. Then we went back to Katherine's ate and fell asleep. This morning we woke at like 8. Lauren left for her mommy's reception. And then went looking for Katherine a bedroom set. Ahhhh. Its so extremly prettttttttty! <3 Finally we found it gosh dang like 10 hours! haha. Then we went to Pizza Hut. After that we headed to our softball game.I beasted. We won, of course. Then after that we came home I changed and we went to Hotline.
I MISS TOMMY FREAKIN HOULAHAN!
Me and you def. gotta hang out. I cant wait. but I do miss you. And I did go to hotline that *ONE* time to see you! "DONT SMILE" ((haha that was so weak)) Anyways...My brother got two pairs of shoes..that was chill. then we went K Mart and I got some hott Jeans. But for now Im just chillin. I love you Tommy <3 I love you Katherine <3 I love you Lauren <3 I love you Jessika <3!
x0___amanda
-comments make my nights sweet-
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Buy a one way ticket on a west bound train
See how far I can go (because I can)
I’m gonna go out dancing in the pouring rain
And talk to someone I don’t know (because I can)
I will face the world around me
Knowing that I’m strong enough to let you go
And I will fall in love again
Because I can
*I dont wanna sound emo because I am not one bit. But so much has changed. I miss my old freinds so much. I miss Kristi, Marie, and Laura like crazy. Yeah we still say "Hi" and stuff but nothing is like spending the weekend with them. Yeah I got new friends and there great too but its something about the friends you grew up with that are just so perfect. I miss em'! I just got a new group of friends now, and sometimes my old friends act like they dont even know me and what not. I hate it but in the end I know I tried my hardest, and I was the bestest friend that I could be. I love you guys no matter what. I am always here for you day in and day out. never forget that...and I'll be there whenever you need me. thats a promise! <3*
I miss ______
*sigh*
x0__amanda!
freek...love!!! </3
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TERDA IS WHO I LOVE.
she is a heart stealer..dont you get it?
watch outttt!
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HAPPY
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Wow. Too much has happened. I have been grounded and I still am. But sometimes I am lucky enough to get on this dagon computer. Yeah, I have been doing really well in school now since my mom has taken this thing away from me. So yeah. Homecoming was on Saturday. OMGAW I had so much fun, I had Danielle, Sam, Jennie, Morgan, Jeff and Zach stay the night. Wow. That was one interesting night. We didnt get to sleep till like 4. And on Sunday, Sam and I took some FUN pictures! It was Lucas and Ambers two months on the 18th...o yeah, and that was my daddies birthday. Lauren and Roberts eight months was on the 19th. :) I remembered and I think she was amazed. But I love her and she knows it now. Well that bit better know it now, or I gunna have to "drop it like its hott on her face" (eww that would be interesting)! Katherine, Lauren, Jessika, and I might hang out friday if I am aloud. I hope so. But I dunno. Yeah. Mike and I are still friends. We dont really talk that much ne more. Kinda makes me sad, but life goes on. HrM. I dont know whats up with that but W/E! Zeke is my boyfriend. Haha. Not really but this kid is so funny. He is always wearing some pink. "Real Men Wear Pink" < haha Alysha and Lauren! Great Times. eewww that bring back soem Mr. Hayes. GROOSSSSOOO! Haha. Brian is always asking me out to lunch but I always say no. Am I an dummy or what? I dunno, I kinda like him but I really dont want a boyfriend right now because my birthday is in 8 days and I kinda wanna have "fun" (like Mike always tells me, I guess). I feel better when I am out having fun then being tied down to "one guy". Jp isnt getting off my mind, but look I gotta move on. I just wish I could get that through my head. He now loves her and not me ne more. Maybe one day I will get what I have been asking God for. One day he will go through the pain I went through, and feel what I felt. Maybe he needs to fall in love with her and then she will break his heart like he broke mine, and tore my world to PIECES! Guys are just so good at that. Who knows what I am good at cuz in every relationship I have been in I have been hurt or what not. But the only guy who did not "cheat" on me was TRAVIS LINDEMEYER! I love that kid with all my heart. I couldnt do it with out him. He made my life, he made me "Amanda Nichole Dean"! Travis I am here for you all day long and until the end. If you dont get that then I am sorry. I will be here when no one else is, and when every one is there, I will be the one to stand in the back and see everything from the outside. I know you inside and out, and you know me inside and out, I dont think any one else knows me better (Katherine too)! But I havent hung out with you in the longest time, but you know what I will never forget your kiss it remains in my heart, just like our dreams, and our memories. Our past time was great. I wish it was still here. I love you always and forever. Your def. very great. <3 I am happy for you Katherine. I am glad that you got a boyfriend. You and Tim are very cute together. I hope you two last this time. I can see that your very happy, and he seems to be that way too! :) Live that life girl! Softball tomorrow!! :) WHOOOOOO!!!
xo__amanda
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wow. Alot alot alot has happened. This weekend was a blast. I couldnt have asked for a better weekend. Just another weekend to be placed on the shelf of memories. I wish we still talked and everything but friends are just what I really wanted. Thanks for the wonderful Friday night. Im sorry I didnt realize earlier, and I guess I made you uncomfy. I appreciate you telling me though. I just hope your doing well, and living life. <3 Your a great guy, really great. And I know that you know that. Mike. your incredible. The next girl that gets you is going to be VERY INCREDIBLY lucky. Believe me, I know what shes getting. <3 I only had you for like a few days, and those were def. the best few days of my life. But anyways. <3 Your a great guy. Love you always!
School? Ha. Its going good. I got my homecoming dress tonight. Its gorgeous. I love it. Too bad I dont have a date. But its cool. Im going with a group of girlfriends. So it should be a blast. I cant wiat. Katherine might go with me but she might go with Jessika also. Who knows. I know I will have fun. <3
So the sweet sixteen is on the count down for me. I so cant wait. :) But I just dunno what I am going to do for it, or who all to invite, or what not. So, any ideas? Tell me! I need to know.
HAPPIER THEN EVER <3
[ c o m m e n t m e w i t h y o u r s w e e t l o v e]
all my freakin love goes to
- katherine, lauren, terda, alysha, mel, amberz, kord, mike, jeff .. etc <3
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Don’t bother trying to explain angel <3
Don’t think that you got me! You did nothing but make me a BETTER person. Ah I am so happy for myself. I dont cry ne more, and I dont waste any mnore tears. I knew I shouldnt have from day ONE. But I guess I cried all the tears I needed to when we dated. All these tears are just telling you how bad you did treat me. You didnt care from day ONE. Your like any other guy out there. You made me fall for your words, and you got what you wanted, then you dropped me like a ton of bricks. I was a sucker for your sweet talk. But thats what I am thankful for. You made me learn. God Bless you that you have skill from hell. Im glad your blessed with that. Because I bet Im not the only that thinks that thats your best skill. You play it well Travis. But I cant wait till you fall hard for that one girl and she DESTROYS ever mile of your heart. I hope she rips it out hard, and never lets you go until you fall totally for her, and then thats when she leaves you behind. I hate to be cruel but you deserve every bit of that treatment. No girl deserves to go through such pain. Especially when they give you everything you have ever asked for, as if I did. I did it becasue I thought you cared, and I thought there was something.. haha, and that something was EXACTLY nothing. You were nothing but a LuSH. That I hate so much. But yet for some reason I love you so much and I think that reason is becasue you taught me more and more day by day. Thanks for all that. But I hope you realize one day that I was the best you'll ever get. And no one else will ever spill there cold hearted heart out to you like I did. I was not scared, I was very faithful, and I did everything to make us work. But the asshole you are, didnt realize that. You didnt get your own head outta your ass. But I guess you were right, its not time for you to have a girlfriend. In due time, be happy with that "pimp juice" but I dont think many girls will be playing that game. Sorry sweetheart <3.
Definitly loving my girls right now. If it wasnt for you girls then I wouldnt be the lady I am today. I am the best I can be right now and I dont think it can get any better then this. Yeah, okay, I passed over what a few friends said or what not, but I learned, and I took that fall on myself. But in the end I learned alot about myself, based on relationships, trust, love, arguements, giving, and recieving. So thank you for all your time and your advice, in the end it came out to you guys being right, but thats always great to have friends like you guys. And I have one friend who wonders how I am not sad about him and I breaking up. And she is like you liked him so much. Yeah I liked him so much but do I really deserve to get treated like that? Should any girl have to go through that when she does everything she can in the world to try to make someone happy? Thats why I am not sad becasue I am better then him, and I knew I shouldnt be treated like that, so why am I going to make myself feel more bad about with him for a longer time? I am sick of wasting these tears on someone. Someone who is an asshole. Lauren I love you to death, but me being sad is the worst thing I can do right now. I am strong, kind hearted, loving, too good for that, and I most of all believe in myself. I dont have too much belief but I believe he was just another guy out there teaching me something about life. He did his job, and now I am better off with out him. <3 I love you though. Girls thank you so much for all you have done. You guys are def. some Angels <3
all my freaking love goes to: Katherine, Lauren, Amberz, Mel Bel, Terda, Lysha, Alyson, Steph..etc <3
comments..those are delightful..
p.s. Im just the kinda girl you will miss <|3
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I am hurt I am destoryed. I will miss you truly. But I cant do anything about it.
Travis...I dont know what I did wrong, I hope your happy with out me...
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Should I cry still? Or should I know by now this is just a daily rutine? I hate to be like this, and I definitly hate to like this because you make me this way. I have never had someone get to me so bad, like you do. Your like my sickness and the only medicine that can save me is to get away, away from it all. I dont deserve any of this that I get. I do way to much. I am tired of being the girlfriend that goes outta her way to do stuff for you. I am tired of being the "bitch" as you would say. Well news flash. There are no "bitches" in a relationship. I do for you, You do for me, Or there is no doing for one another at all. I wanna breakaway from all this pain and hurt, I wanna be like we used to be happy and joy. What happened to all that? What changed in just the snap of a finger? I dont understand, I guess you have some explaining to do, but wait, I forgot, you dont like to do that, at all. I wonder if I'll end up happy. Im not trying to reach out to far becasue everytime I do I get screwed over, just like now. But I hope your happy with what goes on because I know that your killing my deep down inside, but my pride will never die...so dont try to kill it, because I am telling you now, that will NEVER happen! I am the strongest person at the heart you will ever meet. Dont try me Travis. I will over come this in due time. But I will not let your negativity get to me, and break my heart. I am going to break away from you and you will see that I can so much better. <|3 I never want us to end, but we need to make a change, so happiness is a word that I can atleast feel. Becasue all I feel now is pain, hurt, and no feelings. erg. I just wish you knew what I care for you. Why though? Why do I go on caring for you and thinking that we can last when your a asshole to me. I said it okay? Your being an asshole to me now. I hate it. I dont understand what I DO...because last time I checked, I do EVERYTHING right. I do EVERYTHING for YOU! What do you do for me? NOTHING! Yell at me, Bitch at me, Get mad at me, Accuse me of shit...! Whatelse is there? OH yeah, You make me cry...a million tears, that have shoulda never left my eyes. <|3 "We should never let it go"
I hate to say it guys, but I am emo again <|3
..<|3 emo bitch !
comment me..I NEED advice..<|3
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I could cuddle up next to your voice at night...I could sleep right next to your skin. My heart is overwhelmed with this bizarre feeling Ii never thought I'd feel again. I could marry that precious smile of yours. I could wrap my arms around your soul. I feel like I've known you all my life. your half makes me whole. Your kiss echoes on my lips...your touch lingers in my mind...the way you stare into my heart helps me leave all my past behind. The way your breath feels on my face keeps me on a faithful high. I could lay forever right next to you, I could fall right into your eyes. I dont think i could last without you...you give me strength to stand. I just want you to know I love you and my heart is in your hand....
[dedicated, to my one and only]
Travis Hayes..<3
- 8.24.04 -
..not much has been going on. I mean I have been going to school and stuff, and on the weekends, Im usually with Travis, Lauren, Katherine or Amber. I go to alot of football games now, because mainly of my hunny! :). But thats not a bad thing. But last weekend me and Travis hung out. Man, I am so in love with that kid. I dont know what he does to me. He def. makes me the happiest person on this earth. :). I luhhhh you hunny <33 always.
*All the people out there who want to tell me Travis talks to girls...I ALREADY KNOW! I know my boyfriend well enough to know that hes the flirting type. But until you two do SOMETHING then you dont need to tell me. But if SOMETHING happens between you two then you need to tell me. But Yeah, dont try to break us up. Its not worth your time. :) Thanks <3
all this absofuckinglutely love is going to: Travis, Lauren, Amber, Katherine, Lysha, Terda, CJ, Robert etc...! <3
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..well, hrm. I havent really updated in a long time. School is okay, Its nothing special. I mean it feels like I have been going for the longest time. It doesnt even feel like it was SummeR time. pooo. But yeah, I mean I have fun still. Last night I went to my hunny's football game, with my most favorite person alive. < TARA 3. Then when we got to the game I saw my old softball coach. Man I havent seen him in like forever. I miss Great Neck, well not really, but I miss like the friends I had, and shit. But then I saw my lover < AMBER 3. and her hunny, LUCAS! Aw, they are soooooo cute together. I love them. MY HUNNY GOT AN INTERCEPTION! GO HUNNY! YOU DID SO GOOD! I hope your had gets better, and I am glad your headache is gone. I dont like you feeling bad. hehe. I hope the cookies were good. Because I know Amber was chowin down on some of those! Man I had never seen so much hate to one girl. They were all jokin Ashley Frazier so hard. It was crazie. But Lucas was cracking me up. And then I met Derek, the kid that likes Tara. He has a sick truck, and he talks white, but hes black. And yeah, he thought I was Ashley, SO NOT COOL. Ask Tara and Amber, I was upset. but its cool. Derek knows who I am now. haha. Hes just a tad slow. But Today I am going up to Bayside with Lucas and Amber to watch my hunny play some more. Well Leave me some lovely ones.
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I remeber that moment when we were falling just like that sweet summer wind blowing across that beach with the sun setting across the water, and the reddish orange colors that lay on top of the water. And we would walk hand in hand, staring at the sun, just loving every moment that was right. Nothing could seperate us, and nothing would come between us. You stood there, and I stood here, and we came to be one...♥. I open up my heart to you, and I let you walk in. Its like your walking in heaven so be gentle and dont hurt me. I walked into your heart last night when we looked into each others eyes, and said that we cared for each other so much that we were falling. Falling just like that sweet summer wind blowing across the beach with the sun setting across the water, and the reddish orange colors that lay on top of the water. I never thought this would happen. What did I do? I mean I got the world, I got you. And when I got you I got happiness, and smiles, and a heart full of love! I couldnt ask for more then you give, because happiness, smile and love is all I could ask for and you gave that to me from day one. And your all I want for eternity. Your my destiny, my dreams, my life. ♥. I dont ever wanna give up because if I were to then I'd just lose everything. Everything I ever dreamed of having with you. I have faith in US and I believe that we can make it. Make it through what ever we want. We have plenty of believers out there. Your the greatest thing ever... ♥ o9.o3.o4 [[ a day that cant and wont be forgotten ♥ ]].
..havent really updated lately. sorry. Today was the first day of school. It was school. I got lunch with Marie. This is going to be an awesome year. I cant wait. I just wish my hunny went to my school. That would be the best ever. But I betcha that me and Marie and all the otha ladies are going to have a blast. I saw Sam today. AhH. I love that girl. She is the most greatest ever. She makes me happy! But yeah. I really love this girl named Amber Baker. She is awesome. She knows how to make me feel alot better about myself, I hope you and < LUCAS 3 last a long time sweetheart. Its okay to fall, I promise. Im falling too. I love you AMBER! but yeah. <3
Lauren Fletcher and Robert Stone are the best couple ever. They are the couple thats going to beat everyone out. I have never seen two kids go through what they go through. I dont know how they do it..O wait its that one little meaningfull word..
: > L O V E < :
....tell me you love me, but tell me clearly!
I LOVE TARA SCHUSE! like everything about her! man o man!
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What a night! Well yesterday was boring. I just sat at home or whatever and hung out all day. Then at like 8 my mom woke me up and I had to get ready for all night skate. So I got ready or whatever, and I went up there and saw my hunny ♥. And then Lauren showed up and her hair looks so hott. I love it. And then of course all the stuff with Robert and Lauren went down but me and my hunny tried to help them out as much as we could. I mean they need to be together or they dont. Lauren will hurt more and more if she just sits around and waits instead of looking for someone else who wants to be with her. She does not deserve any of this that she is getting. I hate to say it Robert but I dont see the problem why you two cant be together. You cant fix problems when your apart. Well through the night me and my hunny kinda got in a confertation becasue he doesnt think that I am a virgin. And I wouldnt lie about that shit. I am proud to be one. And I mean I am sorry if you dont believe me hunny. But I am and we talk about this all the time. There is no need to lie. Member what relationship are based on..? Im not breaking that. Then later like everyone just like started to get tired and sat down for a while and then all the girls watched most of the guys play "WOLF". Then the dance session came on and Travis asked me to dance so I did. And he is in love with that stuff. Man, my legs were soooooooooooooo sore after doing all that booty shaking. Well I didnt get to give him what I wanted to but he will get it in due time! haha! ♥ He cracks me up. Something about him has me hanging on so tight. His personality maybe childish, and immature at times but its soo funny, and it makes me laugh. I love every single bit of it. Lauren, Robert and I were crackin up on some of the stuff he was doing. Man, this kid is gettin me sooo good. But he knows it. Then we like cuddled up agaisnt the corner and I rubbed his back or whatever. Then CJ was dancing on the railing and I got up there and we had a little dance thingy going. After that I got down and Gabe, Travis, and me layed down on the floor and talked for a little bit. But then a great night ended so quickly that I am left with all these memories. I love you guys. Thanks for making it a night to look back on! ♥
I wanna make this last. I wanna make it perfect. I wanna make it like I have never had it before. You make me the happiest person..ever. You dont understand how bad I want you and I to be together for the longest time. When I am with you all my worries go away. And everything I carried about before I dont care about anymore. You have shown me a new way to live....and thats not by the yellow lines, its by your own mind, and your own life. I dont know what I'd be doing right now if you and I were not dating but I bet you that this is alot better then what I would be doing. Your so wonderful Travis. I dont want to let you go. I hope you know what I am saying, because I care about you alot. I <3 you! ♥
..comments?
Tara..I love you ♥
..♥ amanda nichole
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Travis <3 I am so happy with you that its unexplainable. I am so glad that we are finally together. You know that I dont want anything to seperate us. I just hope that we dont let other people's bullshit doesnt get between us. But I hope we last a while and have the best of it while it does last. o8.24.o4 <3
Katherine <3 I am so sorry that I didnt stay for your whole party. I tried so hard to stick it out. But I just came home and layed in bed for like 10 hours. I didnt even get up once. I am glad you liked your present though. And I hope Jessika and Lauren made your birthday a blast. Those two girls are perfect at having fun! :) But I love you. And I am always here for you. Best friends forever. <3
Lauren <3 I cant wait till wend. Its going to be so much funnnnnn! :) ahhh! But yeah. I love you and I am glad your doing better. Its okay. I know its hard to believe it but it is. And I know your def. having some fun! ;) If ya know what I mean! hehe! I love you forever. <3
Tara <3 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! We have some blast'o'mania times together. Yes, and I cant stop telling people that I am falling even in more love with you. sorry. I love you..terda! <3
allmyf.r.e.a.k.i.n<love3goes..to: Travis, Lauren, Katherine, Lysha, Tara, MelJo!
..comments..they keep me happy! :)
<3 amanda
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..Do I call this reality? Becasue I am finally so happy and I feel like someone actually cares about me ((besides my friends and family)). Tuesday night me and Travis Hayes started dating. And then Wend. I went to the ECSC with MelJo and then my very very very very two special people came and saw me....LAUREN AND TARA! =) and then we left and they were very nice. and took me to see my hunny <3 But me and him went upstairs and talked for a little while. And then we left. And then Thursday night I just slept becasue Travis had a football game and I kinda just layed in bed, and took little naps here and there. It was pretty good! =/ I didnt think he wa ging to call me becasue it was getting so late. But then he did! =) Friday night we went skating and this one bitch Vicki was like all over some of my boytfriend and I was like finally like bitch you need to bakc the fuck up and she was like I like Gabe, I dont like your boyfriend. And then she was like um Travis tell me why Gabe's mad at me and why he doesnt like me. And I was like bitch he doenst like you cuz your eyebrows go all the way across yoru forehead! And then we were all like sitting in a cirlce and this guy goes Amanda said leave and dont come back, and she was like ughhhh whatever. It ws sooo funny. Today I went to the beach with all my special people. Travis, Lauren, Tara, and Gabe! :) We had a total blast. HaHa. Um yeah I fell on my face a few times, but so did Travis. And then so effin shit started p about that Vicki chick again. But I aint even worried about it becasue me and Travis had a long talk about it =) Aww he realy does care about me and wants to be with me for a while! I cant wiat! wow. Well lemme quit. HaHa. But i wuv my Lauren!..this day has come..when you cant let go..and you cant say you dont love him..and you dont wanna say *goodbye..but at [one point or another]..there comes an end..but yet i promise you there is going to be another begining. <3 I love you Lauren.
o8.24.o4 <3 always <3
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So mush has happened. Friday night I went skating and I got to see Alyson becasue she is leaving for NC and I hung out with Travis Hayes. Hes one awesome dude. <3. While I was crusising it was Travis, CJ, and Me...and they tripped me but CJ saved my life. <3. Then later through the night we all hung out by the snack bar, and these to two kids, that were like 11 were having dry sex. I was like hmm..WTF! We dont do that here. And then Stretch saw them, and they had to stop. Joey and Travis were talking about something, and I wanna know but no one will tell me. =[. Then Frank took me home. Hes a cool dude. You just dont know about all that! And Saturday I had to go to my brother, Brad's football scrimage. Aw <3. He did so good. He has never played football in his life, and they have him as QB. He threw a touch down, and ran 3 in. <3. I was soo proud for him. And then I went to Katherine's. That night we went out with Tara. And shit. It was crazy. <3. I saw some people I've never seen in my life. haha. I was in these peoples house that I have never even seen. And me and this guy Justin Burch...talked about when I used to call to talk to his little brother Travis Burch. I remembered so much. It was SO crazy. <3. We came home. Talked on the phone for about two hours. And then Katherine and I went downstairs to watch a movie and I was out. Then Sunday morning I woke up and went to church and then to my brother's baseball camp. I saw Raymond. <3. And then I came home. And at like 6:30 Tara and Lauren called me and they asked me if I wanted to go to the strip. And I said of course. <3. So we went down there for a little while. Got Matt's number..some dude that followed us around the whole time. It was cute. And then I got home at like 10:45. And fell asleep. Then yesterday I did so much laundry. And I cleaned the house a little. I took a little nap. And then around 8..Travis Hayes and Gabe came over. We all hung out. Jumped on the trampoline and went swimming. The freakin pool was SO cold. eeeeeeeeeeeee! Then it took us like forever to get there bikes in the back of my car. I was like OMGaw <3. Wow last night something happened that I thought wouldnt have happened this soon. Lauren I love you. Everything will be okay. Hes just lossing the best girl he will ever have. I promise you that. And you know I dont make to many promises. <3. We are going to work together, and we are going to help you get through this. I talked to Travis for about an hour last night. <3. He called me this morning before he went to football. Aw. <3. Hes soo sweet. And now I'm sitting here at my computer. I think I am going to go back to sleep. <3. Well leave nothing but the good stuff..please? <3.
comment me nigger <3
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..Hrm. <3 Well Its been three days since I updated this thingy ma bomber!
..Wed..
laid around.
did nothing.
stayed emo.
</3
..Thurs..
woke up early.
mowed the grass.
did more yeard work.
went for a swim.
laid out for a few.
got in a fight with my brother.
took a nap.
Lauren came over.
took pics of her.
we went to the beach.
(daddy let me drive all by myself! =])
went to CiCi's with Chris.
( I love that kid <333)
came home.
and went to bed.
NOW! def about to have a beach sesh! ;] haha. You dont know about that. Well Lauren and I are off to the beach for a few fun hours. <3 Call us. Leave us some love. <3
..comments. <3
love. forever.
amanda nichole </3
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I wont stop till I find him...
I'll shed these meaningless words
to the guys they mean nothing to
until I can finally speak
them to someone who cares...
....all theses pieces of me lay on the ground. wish someone would just pick them up and put them back together. </3
Trying to catch my breath
After we talk is useless <3
..make me feel something
that I atleast like the feeling of...
today..
beach sesh
2 hour walk
bike ride home
shower
dinner (with CHRIS, SAM, KATHERINE and JAIMIE!)
now home..
<33 great day...
I love me some Chris. your worse then i thought I was...haha..jK. and your not a bad kid. I love you the way you are <33333333333
...comments..please <3
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